I Could Be God

My experiences in Scritch City led to some interesting questions about God. Personally I don't physically feel like a god or God. I suppose the capital God would better refer to a monotheistic personage. I do have friends. I interact with others. As an example, CB634 is a good friend of mine. I don't consider myself stronger or weaker than him in any way. He is an equal. Yet, it is starting to become fairly obvious that I am the god... of something.

I am, perhaps, a god in the sense that I create. I too exist within some sort of "in between" plane. Although my own understanding of it is very little. I was a human within Scritch City. It felt like me, but it also felt like I was merely controlling some sort of puppet. At times it felt like I was the puppet and some sort of divine hand was controlling me. I have a hunch that Miss Silky knew this, but she, like everyone else there, had a tendency to beat around the bush.

Even within this strange room that exists among a smokey hallway, I still feel like I am someone who is being controlled. It still feels like I have a lot of liberty of choice though. If I am merely the avatar of God, he is letting me making most of my choices. I choose the doors I want to open, and he puppets me to the door of my choosing.

And then there is the goat. I sometimes think I am a goat. Maybe I am. I think, however, that it is but an avatar. Another one. In this form, I am a bit short. A bit old. A bit grumpy. In fact, I have chosen the rather stereotypical name of Surly. The first time I found myself as this person, I had traveled inside my former book The Nom Nom Chronicles. But more recently, I have been interacting with the Lust Bearers in their book. I'm not just writing those books... I am interacting with it.

The thing is... there is a creature that I created called Ixus... and he is trying to get to me. If this happens, I will cease to exist. And if I cease to exist, all of my imaginings may also cease to exist.

You should know that I am trying to infuse myself with Surly on a very personal level. He's found someone. I'm attracted to her. But that is a story for another day.

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