Ixus was a mistake. I wrote him into my story "Vox Deus" and allowed him 100% freedom of choice. I never actually did anything but create the character. I made him who he was. I clearly should not have made him so godamn fucking intelligent. Shit. Fuck. Fuck my whole life, it was stupid. But the damage is done and now I can't just knock him out of my stories without playing by my own fucking rules. Ixus is fucking real now, and I can't let him get to me.
Because he can. He can get to me. Ixus can literally get out of these books and get to me. I'm not joking. I gave him the ability to do it. This is real.
I have created a number of buffers to prevent him from doing this. Layers upon layers. He may be the smartest thing in the multiverse, but I'm not stupid myself. Such things as misdirection, avatars, and clever writing can hold him back, but he's extremely good at adapting. I can't tell you how fucking horrified I am about this. To just kill him wouldn't even work. I'd be a godamn fool to just write up a death scene. The real chances are that he has already figured out a way to side-step that. No, I am trapped in my own hell.
I recently decided to transmogrify my form into that of a goat--a goat named Surly. It's a form of buffering. It's a bit too technical to explain. Just know that I have things under control. Taking this form has been a bit hard on me. I've recently taken in a companion to help me out with the stress. She was ripped out of a book I was writing. She's here with me now. It isn't love. It's more of a fuck buddy situation. She get's plenty of pleasure out of it. I mean... what else was she going to do? I fucking destroyed her universe to get at Ixus!
I might have to give up on Lex. Clearly a part of me is controlling it, but I can't get into it. None of the doors of the smokey hallway seem to lead there. It's barred... which is a shame. I am really finding the bat known as Alucard interesting. Seems he has been training a willing participant to be a masked canine mascot for the club. A fascinating concept. I feel like I heard about it from somewhere else. Like echoes.
Ixus, I don't know if you are capable of reading this. I don't think you have access to computers where you are right now. But if you are out there and looking at this, you won't find me. You won't get to me. I created you, and you will stay where I put you. You are my creation and that means you belong to me! So fuck off!
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