But I do appreciate the context of it all. Surly went through a lot of trouble to bring me back from the dead. I don't even feel like I died at all now. I'm alive and enjoying my time here in this very small world.
We do have a lot of sex. Surly likes to use a lot of harsh or lewd words when he talks sexual to me. He enjoys saying "fuck" and "pussy." I always tend to be a little overwhelmed by it. I've tried to convince him that there must be a nicer way to say these things, even in his stories. But he explained to me that the use of the hard words are a matter of stress relief for him. He does seem stressed quite often, so I guess it's okay if it makes him feel better.
Surly is into a lot of different kinks, many more than he is willing to write about. He has been spending a lot of time trying to teach them to me. A lot of them gross me out, but he really pushes them on me pretty hard. He tells me that I can get into them in time if I keep experimenting. Although this has worked on a number of acts, I still can't get used to putting my tongue inside his bottom. Just writing this now is difficult, but he's been telling me this whole time to just write my feelings without worrying what he thought of it.
Surly actually walked through the door the other night. I saw him walk into another person's bedroom and come back with a little plush animal--a deer with a bow on her head. She is really adorable. He told me that the world he was in had been recently nullified. This confused me, so he further explained that there were still people and places to go, but nobody was really moving or doing anything. They were like confused ghosts. When I asked if they could be saved, he said that he had no real interest in saving them. This made me sad.
I want everyone to know that I am happy here. Surly does sometimes make me uncomfortable, but he is always there for me. He is always showing me a lot of attention. Even when he tries to get me to do something weird or gross, he gives me time to figure it out and learn. I really do love him. I'm actually getting a lot of pleasure in my life.
Surly told me he hopes to find Jason again so we can have a threesome. I do like the idea of that. It sounds like a lot of fun, but I would only do it if Surly was there. He told me that he was a fan of what he called "spit-roasting." That's when you have one guy in your mouth and another guy in one of your back holes. The idea does make me a little uncomfortable, but I also find it exciting. I would do it for him.
I do slightly remember Jason. He seemed very friendly and calm. I could talk to him, and he seemed like he was listening. I do hope I see him again.
That's all I can think of to talk about. Thanks for reading Surly's books. He explained that when people read his books, it causes the realities to be more real... or something like that. He's laughing at me so I'm just gonna stop typing!
~Vixxy the Fox
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